tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1678671341796735502.post3016911090646758294..comments2023-11-02T02:40:04.373-07:00Comments on Wild (North) West Litigator: Clouds In My Silver LiningCPhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09049860284871030328noreply@blogger.comBlogger5125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1678671341796735502.post-4917365048614519292008-10-30T18:18:00.000-07:002008-10-30T18:18:00.000-07:00I have felt this way so many times. You're not alo...I have felt this way so many times. You're not alone in that!! Honestly I'm with FSD in my hope that you regain that faith, because it's been a huge source of comfort for me (when I let it be...). That said, again, I still have these morbid thoughts. One huge fear I have is that someone will push me onto the subway tracks and I won't be able to get out and then I'll get hit by a train. Silly, yes, but scary still. (Especially because I ride the subway twice a day!)Portiahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01319767548482677457noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1678671341796735502.post-10981559193389009372008-10-29T16:03:00.000-07:002008-10-29T16:03:00.000-07:00You basically described how I feel. I think daily...You basically described how I feel. I think daily that I am way too plagued by the knowledge that I will die someday. I also think it happened when I was in college and lost my religious faith. It wasn't on purpose - it just stopped being believable. And thus went the security of the afterlife. You are not alone - but until now I thought I was alone in feeling this way! <BR/>(Unfortunately there is no happy advice at the end of this comment ... I just feel the exact same way.)Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1678671341796735502.post-7376601965324101392008-10-29T13:29:00.000-07:002008-10-29T13:29:00.000-07:00I occasionally have the same concerns, but I have ...I occasionally have the same concerns, but I have found that they've increased during my pregnancy. My fear is losing someone, particularly my husband, rather than them losing me. Perhaps that's selfish??? I can't imagine living my life w/o my husband. In fact, while on vacation in Sept., we were in our hotel room watching The Titanic. When the movie ended I had a complete breakdown! Now I've seen the movie a gazillion times, but on this particular day it broke my heart to know that "Rose" had to live the rest of her life without her beloved "Jack". I was crying like a baby. Trevor didn't know what to do or say. Finally, in the midst of my sobs, I expressed to him that I never want to live my life without him and then started crying even harder. It's kinda funny when I reflect back on that moment (LOL), but I truly meant that and still do.<BR/><BR/>I'm sorry to hear that the faith you once had has diminished. As a person of deep faith, I truly pray that you get that back.<BR/><BR/>Try not to dwell on the things you can't control. Commit to living every moment in the "now" and relish in it. I agree with Leo...if these thoughts are too consuming, perhaps you should talk to someone.<BR/><BR/>(((HUGS)))FSDhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08589454118258995448noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1678671341796735502.post-31060425445558961252008-10-29T08:57:00.000-07:002008-10-29T08:57:00.000-07:00I think about this stuff sometimes too... most of ...I think about this stuff sometimes too... most of us know people that have died untimely deaths or who left behind families who really needed them, so I don't think it's that weird to have those thoughts occasionally when you really love your life and your family. When the thoughts start consuming you and you can't enjoy your daily life, I think it might be good to talk to someone about it because no one should have to deal with that amount of anxiety over something so distant and uncontrollable.<BR/>I also know what you mean about the comfort religion can (and sometimes doesn't) provide... at least for me, but I would guess for a lot of people in our generation, our faith goes through waves of strength and weakness... sometimes I wholeheartedly believe in what my religion preaches, and other times I question almost everything. It's a part of finding out who we really are, and personally I think it shows maturity to be able to admit when you have questions and doubts :)LEOhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03081911312259246237noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1678671341796735502.post-793446770460869312008-10-29T07:48:00.000-07:002008-10-29T07:48:00.000-07:00i have experienced exactly the same feelings since...i have experienced exactly the same feelings since having a baby. i wonder if it is something hormonal, and will settle down once i stop nursing and my hormones go back under control? anyway, just wanted to let you know you are not alone.<BR/>sarahAnonymousnoreply@blogger.com