Wednesday, September 10, 2008

I'm A Happy Mess

Lately I've been suffering from some sort of emotional postpartum high. I'm constantly on the verge of tears...but not the sad, depressed kind. Every little thing reminds me how much I love my little baby and my husband.

I'm already sad that he's going to grow too fast. The newborn stage has always been my favorite. I love how Jacob still curls up into a little ball, so small and unimposing. I love Jacob's rythmic heavy breathing against my neck and his quiet peaceful slumber. Right now he needs me for everything and I'm so happy to give it all to him.

I'm so happy, it's indescribable. The only way I can express it is through quiet gentle tears.

*Just reading this post for editing made me cry to the point of near dehydration*

4 comments:

Portia said...

I love it!! It's amazing how true everything they say is, isn't it? I always thought people were exaggerating! Congratulations, Cee. I'm glad things are going so well for you guys!

LEO said...

aww, that is so sweet! I'm so happy for you :)

postscript said...

I'm so glad you're enjoying youself!

I meant to comment on the last post--Jacob is so adorable!

newduck said...

That happened to me too! I cried for months after my baby was born, but it was always tears of joy. I called it post-partum euphoria. It kind of made me understand how people get post-partum depression, though, because there's all these crazy hormones running through your system, and I think in some people that turns sad and in some it turns happy. I'm glad to hear you got the happy one.